3.4 pounds down in one week, 288.8 slowly getting down there……I’m happy and optimistic. I want to keep going! I need to keep going. First goal is 270. I haven’t hit the gym yet because I want to get my diet right before I start working out and I wanna find some classes that will help me and that I will like….Any suggestions?? I also am getting the cold that’s going around, but I’m keeping my head high. I know I will beat this weight. I just have to be patient. Went grocery shopping today. I got a lot of fruit and yogurt and cottage cheese. Valentine’s day is coming, making the boo a healthy dinner so I won’t be cheating but there will be cheesecake:/// my weakness……
I’m peaking 300 pounds…..wow, this is embarrassing. Today I was 292.2. Why do I do this to myself. Why can’t I just stick to my weight loss goals. I hate myself for this. Everyone says it’s easy but where the Hell does the easy part come in. People say you have to want it and I DO! I want it so bad but how come its not happening. I see all these pictures of weight loss before/afters and I’m jealous….. how come that can’t be me? Why? I look at recent pictures of myself and I am disgusted. I can barely look at myself anymore. Embarrassed to take full body pictures, black is my best friend. This is ridiculous, and I really want to change. I feel like no one supports me or has my back on this. I don’t want weight loss surgery at all but it’s getting harder me harder to avoid….:(
Ugh I’m trying not to think about the fact that I have 3 more months left with him before basic training……ahhh…..bittersweet. I need someone to reassure me that this is a good idea.