Welcome to Wonderland

Currently listening to: Lil Wayne ft Bruno Mars - Mirror, Current Feeling - Happy, but curious, and bummed. As you know alot go through my mind daily, some I put out there on the table but some I just keep to myself. This is one of these kind of weeks where I’m not putting everything out on the table just because I know that What’s I would say is going to get criticed. I just wish more people understood how I feel. My freinds are on a different level than I am so they don’t understand how I feel when it comes to guys. They have more experience nd it’s easier for them to flirt but I’ve never haad the real oppurtunity to flirt and it come out successful. I don’t know what I’m doing. They try to help me and give me tips but they don’t understand that its not that easy to change myself from being shy and putting myself out there to  guy I like. It’s my huge fear of rejection that’s holding me back and I have no idea how to break it. I just need to hope for the best aat this point I guess. This song has so much meaning right now.